Today's my last day of work, and I feel strangely sad about leaving. After a couple week of sleepless nights, backaches, and general discomfort and fatigue, I thought I'd be rejoicing to finally make it to this point. And in some ways I am. But I also genuinely enjoy my job (most days, anyway), so I can't help feeling a little sad to close the doors on this part of my life.
At the same time, I'm totally excited that I get to stay home with Perrin. I never thought I'd be able to do this. It will definitely require some major sacrifices--no more eating out or other frivolous spending. But I know it's worth it. (Perrin, I hope you're worth it!!) :) And Trey and I both really feel at peace with our decision--we feel like God has blessed us by making it possible for me to stay home, and we're trusting that He'll provide for us.
I'm not completely leaving FamilyLife altogether... after a few months, I'm planning to work a few hours from home each week for the Global department. So hopefully this will be like the best of both worlds. But it's still a major change... an exciting, scary, never-be-the-same-again change. After all, I know how to organize meetings, create PowerPoint presentations, and write proposals or product descriptions. But taking care of an infant? Brand new territory for me. I truly believe that I'm leaving one full-time job and entering into a much more difficult (but also more rewarding) full-time job.
My new job title: Mommy. Hours per week: (How many hours are in a week? That many. Plus some.) No experience necessary (thank goodness). Description: Keep baby clean, fed, rested, safe, and loved. And try not to put the diaper on backwards.
I am VERY happy for you! Seventeen years ago I made the same decision, the same sacrifices and TRUST ME - it has ALL been worth it! I also had the same "wonderings" of whether or not I could do it. God's grace is amazing and my children are the greatest joy in my life. I have grown more as a person and learned more about life than I ever would have had I not fully committed to my role as mom. Life is about to become VERY full and you will now understand so much more about your Heavenly Father! Blessings, upon blessings on your family!
ReplyDeleteYou are going to be an awesome mom. Any I'm sure Perrin will love any PowerPointg presentations you want to put together for him. :)
ReplyDeleteI bet you didn't know exactly how to do things like organize meetings, write proposals or product descriptions when you started your job. You go some on the job training. I hear babies require alot of on the job training, so there you go.
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