Trey's been in Denver for the past few days for work, which means I've gotten to experience a brief glimpse of single motherhood to a 2-year-old and a newborn. Single moms: HOW do you do it?? Trey: Please please please don't ever leave me ever ever again!
Yep, I've decided I'm simply not cut out to do this alone. Both kids are very needy at the moment (Brielle because she's a newborn, and Perrin because there's a new baby in the house... and he's still only 2 after all), and I constantly felt like there wasn't enough of me to go around. (WHY does Perrin ALWAYS decide he needs help using the bathroom when I'm in the middle of nursing Brielle? Poor girl never gets an uninterrupted meal these days. I guess she gets him back though because she always wakes up screaming when I'm trying to fix him breakfast. The sibling rivalry has begun.)
Anyway, I think Perrin had a tough time with his daddy being gone, too. Last night he woke me up at 11:00, crying and saying he wanted to snuggle. I assumed he was probably missing Trey and just needed a little love. I hugged him and carried him back to his bed, prayed for him and said good night. End of story. Right? Nope. He showed up again at midnight. I repeated the process. Then again at 1:00. Repeat. Then again at 2:00. Repeat.
But as I sat here today feeling tired and sorry for myself and counting down the minutes until Trey would be back home, I realized how blessed I am that I have someone to rely on and help me raise our kids. Lots of single moms do it day in and day out with virtually no help and no end in sight. I've never thought much about single moms and what they have to do to provide for their families, and I know my four days alone (and working only a couple hours a day instead of full-time) isn't sufficient to really show me the extreme difficulty of it.
In summary:
1. I'm extremely thankful for my husband and so glad that he's back home
2. I have the utmost respect for single moms who are making the best of a very tough situation
3. I need to stop my whining, because I'm pretty darn fortunate
4. But I am still very, very tired today so I'm going to call it quits and go to bed
